The Inner Life
Perhaps in our inner life, sometimes referred to as our “inner-room”, we have a moment where we can almost feel God “moving” in us. Something is without a doubt “happening,” and it’s as if we feel it in our whole being.
Such experiences can come with words, a bodily sensation, thoughts and inspirations, tears and laughter. This kind of encounter with God seems in contrast with times where our relationship with God seems dry, quiet or distant and we carry some anxiety or question if anything is happening.
The “what ifs” and uncertainties of our spiritual life are given new depth, even beauty in such moments of comfort when our inner movements with God are undeniable to us.
The Life Within You Letters
Oh baby, my body is starting to change, so others will start to notice you soon. Your dad and I have known you were there since the beginning; I can’t explain how, but we felt your presence.
A few weeks ago we had our first ultrasound and we heard your heartbeat. My heart melted. I could barely make you out on the screen because you are so tiny. Since then I have experienced moments of great fear; so many things could go wrong, so many “what ifs” float through my head every day. What if I hurt Baby by doing things I normally would do?
Today I felt you move in a way that was undeniably real – I know without a doubt you are there! I put your daddy’s hand on my belly but he can’t feel you yet. I know you are there and I want to feel you move over and over.
If you’ve experienced a time or season when God seems “absent” or your inner life seemed inactive, what (if anything) brought you relief or comfort?
Additional Resources:
Go to Your Inner Room (The Word Among Us) Every day, Jesus invites us to come into his presence and have communion with him.
What to Expect At Your First Ultrasound (Parent Magazine)
When God Feels Far Away (Catholic Digest)